too fast

Alright, so I'm currently eating my words. I have, for the last few months, been pretty braggy about having never getting pulled over.

I have been driving for 3 years without an accident or a ticket... until August. I was in a fender bender a few weeks before I came back to school. Really sucky. My sister and her best friend were with me so that was the worst of it. No damage to anyone (besides my license plate and pride). So, I've been a much more careful driver since then and all has been well. Until last Sunday. I went to Longview to stay with my grandma for a day and was driving back to Fort Worth to get back to Waco. And I got pulled over in stupid Dallas in a stupid construction zone. Cool. Not. I was going too fast and deserved it. Ughhhhh.

Anyways, getting this ticket paid is taking up a huge chunk of my life. And it's is becoming more and more annoying. On that note- pretty positive I want to apply to work at Starbucks. More on that later.

I also voted yesterday... Sort of sucks this had to be my first election to vote in. Neither candidate does a lot for me so - I voted for the lesser of two evils.... =)

Yeah, thats a quick recap on my life. Homecoming this weekend= no sleep because of float. and studying has again slipped to the background for the moment.

Peace,
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I have terrible allergies today.

Awful, annoying, making me miserable.


I would just like to sleep them away, thank you.

hey collin!

Hey Collin, thanks for reading my blog.

<3

today!

The days get busier and busier.

It was raining this morning but I, being the smart girl I am, wore flip flops and a polyester jersey (the jersey was not my choice, but Theta's). Had I realized how hard it was raining, I would have worn real shoes and a t shirt. But alas, I was my own personal air conditioner all morning. I sold tshirts and tickets to a Theta event that is coming up and the best part was, I got to sit and visit with someone I don't know very well. It was so good. We ended up having a lot in common and I thoroughly enjoyed just sitting still for awhile and talking about life and love and where we're going. Class was class. Accounting sucks the life out of me. I understand it most of the time but because we do homework online (see the last post) and the professor writes our quizzes and tests, there is a large difference in the two. It requires a lot of extra effort outside of class to understand the material both the book's way and my professor's. I spend about 2 hours a day doing accounting just to struggle by. I studied this afternoon and went to awesome calculus tutoring. I also ran for a little while to burn off some studying snacks and get some fresh air. I should do it more often. I feel more alive when my pulse is racing and my breath is short. Then I went to more math tutoring. My friend Megan is a God-send. For real. I don't know what I'd do without her. Then I went to songs practice for Fall Parties (Baylor's first round of recruitment). We have less than 2 weeks til the parties so songs practice is getting intense. It is finally feeling comfortable and at home. It too is a blessing.

Sorry that was a long recap of my day but I say all that to say- I serve a faithful God. I have been saying this a lot to people around me but I feel like He has been showing me His tender faithfulness the past week or two. It has been very real in my life lately. Every time I feel like I cannot recover from this blow or resolve a situation, He provides. When I am frustrated by a class, He provides a tutor and a great friend to study with. When I cry out to Him for a close friendship, He provides a new friend to sit and talk with. When I crave community and encouragement, He gives me a room full of people who hug me and make me feel welcome. My God is faithful to His children. He will not WILL NOT leave me or you. He gives me exactly what I need, especially when I deserve it least. I am being blown away and renewed by His faithfulness.

How is God showing you His love and faithfulness?

homework

Financial accounting, microeconomics, calculus, and quantitative business data are ruining my life.


especially accounting. college is different than high school in that your professor's errors are still your responsibility. and its so annoying. biggest pet peeves is when professors change their minds at the last minutes or change what they say in class. I don't think they realize quite how busy I am and that I really do plan for what they say. so when someone says we have only 2 homework problems (that usually take about 20 minutes each) because this someone didn't quite cover in class what they should have yet STILL gives 8 homework problems that sucked up 2 hours of my life that I can't ever get back. That my friends is annoying and inconsiderate.

just a little rant. now I have to study qba and some calculus. and maybe sleep. but maybe not.

to be not cool

I struggle with doing what I'm supposed to. It is expected of me to make appearances at parties and hang outs. I used to get really down on myself when I didn't go out or didn't party hop and meet people. I used to think something was wrong with me because all I really wanted was to just fit in. I struggled (and still do) with self confidence in this regard. I want to be social. I desire that.

But this weekend, I found myself surronded my good friends, in a quiet atmosphere. It wasn't a party. It wasn't socially acceptable. But we watched movies and talked and enjoyed each other's company. It is good to be not cool sometimes. Most times.

Lord, tonight, remind me that it is enough to just be Yours. Remind me that this earth is fleeting, with all its' expectations and requirements and desires. I just want to be Yours tonight.

Seriously,

The Office is the most brilliant 30 minutes of television I watch all week.

And House.

But The Office cracks me up. Seriously.

if i can say just one thing, let it be Your name Lord. if i can hear just one voice, let it be Yours. l
et Your holiness pour from my lips. may my thoughts be inhabited Lord,
let Your glory fall over me. let it be Yours.
if i can sing just one song, let it be in Your Name Lord.
And when i need strength in weakness, Ill call on Your name,
let it be Yours. let Your holiness pour from my lips.
may my thoughts be inhabited Lord
let Your glory fall over me. let it be Yours.
oh Lord, teach me to die to myself, so all that is left is You
oh You, let me eat and breathe on Your Word.
Let it be Yours.